Living in Spain and living totally alone is a wonderful experience. There are no expectations on me, as people don’t know me! There are very few must do’s, except going out to buy food, make sure there is enough money for the bills, write a blog or two….
I choose what I do each and every day and for that I am very grateful. All the years working, 2 jobs, running a home, being a wife, a partner, a friend, it all took its toll and now it is the me time I need.
From my lowest point in Sept 2010 and through till April 2011 when this picture was taken I looked for help and information.
I worked hard at recovering from my illness and I took the time to listen to my body and work out what it and my mind were telling me. I needed a rest.
Now I’m ready to move on. Yet I find there is now an emptiness, a question as to what next, am I just here or can I add value? Where can I find the answer to those questions?
I found it on my return visit to the UK.
What grounds me, what gives me a purpose are the people I love and care for.
I had a fantastic visit, catching up with friends, seeing my family, favourite animals, to the point that I felt ‘filled with love’.
And even my favourite animals got a visit!
My poor cat Ginger, not well himself, walked around the house with a shadow, a young girl fascinated with him. He remained calm, aloof and just out of hands way, she chased excitedly!
Filling up on love is a great way to pick yourself up when you are down. I was lucky to have people who are positive, happy and enjoyable to be with. It was a lesson in being grateful that the right people were there for the evening.
Recently I saw a post of facebook saying that ‘she’ was going to jettison some friends. She wanted real friends only, those who were supportive and positive. I thought it was a brave step and also a right step to take.
Cherish those who are good to you and for you.